
Did you know that Facebook can actually ruin a person's day?
I was checking my facebook account when I came across my biological father's page. He is in Manila right now, attending the graduation of my half sister.
I suddenly felt pain rushing inside me. I wanted to meet him personally. You know the Hi-I'm-your-first-daughter-kindda-thing (FYI he knows me, I know him). I made an effort to schedule a meet up when I was in CDO with the help of my mom's good friend/distant relative but he was not that cooperative. Okay, so giving the benefit of the doubt, I assumed that since he is a newly elected counselor he might be very busy. But hell, I was only asking a moment of his time and he didn't give it to me. Selfish. It's not like I am going to invade his life or ruin his family. Formality, that's what I told mom when she asked me why I wanted to meet him.
Going back, It just hurts to face the fact that he never really cared. Did I mention that he never even tried to communicate with me even once. Hello, I'm like turning 28 this September. Yes, ladies and gents I'm almost 28 and I have never met my dad.
I admit that I am angry at him for not having the balls to at least explain what had happened before. Why he turned his back on us. Why he abandoned us.
At this very moment I am starting to develop hatred against him. All I wanted is to meet him and know more about him. He already broke my heart many times. He doesn't CARE. I guess, I'll have to deal with that. But I am hoping one day he would realize everything. One day, when his old and can barely walk, he would remember that there was a child born last September 5, 1983 and that child is also her daughter.