TOO MUCH

Have you ever felt over used.. exhausted..tired to the nth power.. please.. this is not because of work! Kahit na pinipilit na lang ng katawan kung bumangon para pumasok.. o kaya naman mag reklamo ako ng mag reklamo na ayaw ko ng pumasok.. tinatamad na ako.. I dont have any choice.. I need to work to earn money..To support my family.. To buy the stuff that I needed..

What I am trying to say is.. I am tired of being a nice person.. pagod na akong mag pakumbababa.. mag pasensya.. ubos na pisi ko.. I am so damn tired of caring for other people who doesn't want me at all.. I don't want to please them anymore.. Ive already done my part.. and you know what.. Ive done more than my share..

Life can be very unfair.. You try to be nice.. they still won't mind you.. You do something wrong.. They'll all get mad.. criticize you..curse you even.. Where is the justice in this world????

I know I am not a perfect person..But I deserve to be respected by the people around me.. I never did anything to hurt them.. I even tried my best to please them.. To make them feel wanted and loved.. But I guess some people can be so insensitive that they care less.. love less..

I just wish one day they'll all realize my worth.. The things that they have taken for granted.. The time they wasted and the pain that they've caused... by that time.. I wont reaching for their hands any more.. I wont smile.. I wont pity them... Now its their to turn to please me..it may not be today.. But if that time comes.. No more Miss nice girl....