An open letter

Dear YOU,

We've been special friends for sometime now. We've shared alot of moments together and I have to admit, I was happy.I had fun. But the endless battle in my head made me decide to choose her over you. Not because we've been together for a very long time and that we share more moments together. I dunno, I guess I just love her thats why. Not that I am saying that I did not love you, I did. I loved you. But I love her more.

I did give you a chance. The chance that you asked from me before. If you think I dont see or feel the effort that you gave me. You are wrong, I felt it. I appriciate it. I am thankful for it. I am greatful that God gave me someone like you. You've been so patient with me. You understood my mood swings. You made me laugh. You cared for me.You protected me.You loved me unconditionally. And for that, Thank you.

It was never my intention to hurt you. It never occured to me that the thing that we did, our set up would cause you so much pain. We've talked about it a couple of times before we even decided to start the whole thing, right? All along I thought you understood everything.

I believe I did my part as well. Where you able to feel it? If not, I am sorry. I did my best to make the "thing' that we have work. The only problem is, you took the risk. I did not. You loved me too much. I only gave you a part of my heart. You gave the world to me and promised to love me forever. That's when I stopped and realize that the feeling can never be mutual because someone already rocked my world. And it was not you.

I am also in pain right now.Believe it or not, It was never easy for me to do this. But I have too. I dont wanna be selfish anymore. I dont wanna be unfair.I dont deserve someone like you.

By the way, I heard you starting to come out from your shell. At first, I was a bit jealous because I was the apple of your eye, but now you have a new darling. I told myself, I no longer own you and you deserve to be happy. I am happy for you though, honest. And I wish you luck.

I know I asked for forgiveness a couple of times, but I will never stop saying I am sorry until that wound of yours heal. For the nth time, I AM SORRY.

This will not be goodbye.. only see you soon. I hope someday when we meet again, you'll be able to give me the same smile. That shy smile you gave me when I first met you. Thank you for coming into my life. You are such a wonderful person. Always remember, I will always be your friend. I will always be around if you need me.

XOXO,

ME

P.S You will always be my sweetest mistake.

(Sorry for the typo and wrong grammar...)