My song..

ALL THE LOVE IN THE WORLD (The Corrs)

I'm not looking for someone to talk to I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K. I've got more than a girl could wish for I live my dreams but it's not all they say Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore Still believing you'll walk through my door All I need is to know it's for sure Then I'll give... all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion Just to get you through the loneliest days I can't criticize it I have no hestitaion My imagination just stole me away (Still...) Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore Still believing you'll walk through my door All I need is to know it's for sure Then I'll give... all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime not for a moment So how could I throw it away Yeah I'm only human And nights grow colder With no-one to love me that way Yeah I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore Still believing you'll walk through my door You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure Then I'll give all the love in the world (Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)

Single..

I am not used to being single. I've been a relationship for god knows how long. I had may fair share of tears and happiness. Time and experience made me become a better person. Pain made me stronger.


I was lying on my bed when something hit me. HARD. I know ill get used to the fact that I will be spending most of my days alone. But Fuck loneliness, its killing me. Though I have my friends by my side. Always there to support and take care of me...for the meantime.lol. But everytime I see lovers, my jealous bone.. Oh my.. hahaha! Here comes bitterness.. and there goes my imagination.


I do not regret the decision that I made a couple of months ago. I know I made someone's heart bleed. I made them cry, but I know its for our own good. I dont want to pretend or even force myself to be in a situation that would only lead to more hurting and more crying. The decision I made was the hardest one, true. Atleast I was brave enough to face the truth that Its over and I was able to spill the beans... otherwise it would just lead to more complications.


My eyes are now puffed.. I gotta splittin headache.. Im counting the days. Waking up every morning, checking my mobile phone. Wishing someone would text me sweet nothings. I miss being called "baby".."honey".. "Love"... I miss kissing someone.. I miss holding hands with someone.. I love yous... I miss yous...Making love.. Sigh! I just miss being with someone! Waaaahh.. Here comes loneliness again.. I swear I am about to commit suicide now.. I need more booze.. pass me the tequila.. I need 10 shots..


If god is punishing me.. He is doing a good job..This is torture.. I think.. Hahahaha...I know.. I know.. I should wait.. But I am not a very patient person you know.. I just hope I can still handle this feeling..I am praying that I can manage living alone without asking any help from anybody.. I am scared though..Wish me luck!



-xoxo-

Bang..Bang..Ouch!

"Love makes no promises......."

Ive been guarding my heart for the longest time.Nobody can easily get inside it,I hid the key in place no one would ever find,I have to protect it,I will never give in.

Out of the blue,someone came along.One smile and I was blown away.I was like cast in a spell.then I see myself whispering in her ear,telling her where I hid the key,and before i knew it,she was already inside.

She manipulated my entire system,Our bodies move,swaying to the beat.I swear I was totally lost,I was mesmerized by her,I wanted to get out but it was too late.

Then one day,she left without even closing the door.I see broken glasses everywhere,seems like my heart stopped beating.I looked around searching for a sign,I saw her waving with an evil grin in her face,My heart was crushed,pulverized.

I know I can be vunerable at times,But she really caught me off guard,I wasnt expecting this would happen,I wasnt ready to get hurt right away.She took my heart and cut into many pieces.

Lesson learned?Never ever trust someone right away,She may look like your knight and shinning aromor,but behind that beautiful face is a devil who would play with your heart,and then leave without even closing the door and handing you the key.

Guarded..

Knock knock..

who's there..

LOVE..

who?

LOVE..

Im busy..

Common lemme in..

Not interested...

I said lemme in..

Why should I?

I promise to give joy to your life..

Who's Joy?

Argh.. Just lemme in..

I'll think about it...

Dont think about it...

Why not?

Because there's nothing to think about..

And what do you have to offer?

Everything your heart desires..

Really now and you think I'd believe you?

Of course..

How many hearts did you break?

Well, there was one time..and there was also..

How many times did you say goodbye?

Uh..

How many times did you say "oops.. Im sorry, its not you its me? "

But..

No buts.. I want answers..

I know but you're not letting me answer your questions..

It's just simple questions and you can't answer it right away.. DUH!

You just dont listen eh?

WHY?

I just dont want to,,

My! you are one guarded heart..

Cant blame myself, I've been hurt a couple of times.

What do you want me to do then?

Convince me with actions not with words..

Can't you just lemme in first before I do that?

Hell no! I aint stupid..

You're asking for too much..

Too much.. haha!

Why are you laughing?

Well if you cant do it.. goodbye..

wait..wait..

Hello?