Single..

I am not used to being single. I've been a relationship for god knows how long. I had may fair share of tears and happiness. Time and experience made me become a better person. Pain made me stronger.


I was lying on my bed when something hit me. HARD. I know ill get used to the fact that I will be spending most of my days alone. But Fuck loneliness, its killing me. Though I have my friends by my side. Always there to support and take care of me...for the meantime.lol. But everytime I see lovers, my jealous bone.. Oh my.. hahaha! Here comes bitterness.. and there goes my imagination.


I do not regret the decision that I made a couple of months ago. I know I made someone's heart bleed. I made them cry, but I know its for our own good. I dont want to pretend or even force myself to be in a situation that would only lead to more hurting and more crying. The decision I made was the hardest one, true. Atleast I was brave enough to face the truth that Its over and I was able to spill the beans... otherwise it would just lead to more complications.


My eyes are now puffed.. I gotta splittin headache.. Im counting the days. Waking up every morning, checking my mobile phone. Wishing someone would text me sweet nothings. I miss being called "baby".."honey".. "Love"... I miss kissing someone.. I miss holding hands with someone.. I love yous... I miss yous...Making love.. Sigh! I just miss being with someone! Waaaahh.. Here comes loneliness again.. I swear I am about to commit suicide now.. I need more booze.. pass me the tequila.. I need 10 shots..


If god is punishing me.. He is doing a good job..This is torture.. I think.. Hahahaha...I know.. I know.. I should wait.. But I am not a very patient person you know.. I just hope I can still handle this feeling..I am praying that I can manage living alone without asking any help from anybody.. I am scared though..Wish me luck!



-xoxo-