I'm falling in love again...

I was never a risk taker when it comes to love. I always make sure that if I would enter a relationship, the person I am to be with loves me more or I know her to well so I can easily manipulate her. Sigurista ako, ayoko nang nasasaktan ako agad agad. The only time I experienced great pain because of love was way back 2004 or 2005, I don't even want to remember that.

I've been technically single for 3 months when this person came to my life. Well, I already dated this person once (late last year) and I find her very attractive, not to mention she is career driven and smart. But for some effin reason (I don't want to mention it anymore), the relationship didn't materialize and the communication was cut. So I continued living my life, trying to do damage control and enjoying what it has to offer. I was not expecting to be in a relationship anytime soon for I was having fun. Work is great, the pay is good and I have awesome friends. I couldn't ask for more.

And then she came back. After telling me that her relationship was on the rocks, we started talking again. I already accepted the fact that I am in the friend zone and I was not expecting anything more to happen. I was also not thinking that someone like her would like someone like me. But boy things happened so quickly and the next thing I knew we were together, we became lovers.

It definitely scares me big time because I am starting to write a new love story. I don't know her too well and I don't know what's in store for me. I am scared to love her too much and not getting the same amount of love that I am giving. I am scared that I may end up crying.

Though she already promised me that she will never hurt me or make me cry. At the back of my mind, the fear of loving someone like her weakens my soul. I tried so hard to keep myself guarded but as days go by, my feelings for her gets stronger and stronger. My mind tells me NO, but my heart says YES. I am surely going to be in deep trouble once I completely fall under her spell.

Oh god help me! the last thing I would want to experience right now is a heart break.



*Background music: Eagle-Eye Cherry - Falling in love again - YouTube *