What a feeling..

It's a great feeling when your other half is making you experience the things you've never tried doing before. Every time I am with her, I feel so alive. If I have the power to stop time, I would freeze time so I'd get to spend more time with her.. Make her feel how much I love and value her. Look at her and tell her "I love you" without batting an eye.

Like normal lovers, we do fight sometimes. I am a very stubborn person, but with her I'm learning the word "sorry".. I am trying to reach out so we'd stop arguing. I am trying to patch things up right away and make sure that I never make her feel bad. In fairness, ang haba nang pisi ko.

The other side of me is slowly emerging.. My other side that I hid for the longest time. I've guarded myself for almost 7-8 years just because I almost died when I lost my greatest love. The great pain that I have experienced made me numb. I am not saying that I didn't love my ex girlfriends, because I did.. but not 100%. I love them enough to keep the relationship.  Enough to make them feel secured. Enough to hold on and try.

But now, I am opening my heart. I am willing to give her the love that she deserves.. 80%..90%.. even 95%... I know its too early to say this, but hey I already took the risk so I might as well enjoy the ride. If it doesn't work the way I want it to be, well that's life... yes, ill cry.. I'll be sad.. but I will never regret all the decisions that I made when we were together. I'll never blame myself for loving her too much..

:)