Words vs. actions

Often times, my inner voice would bug me. Those voices inside giving me negatives thoughts about my feelings for you. Telling me that you are out of my league and that you're too much for me. My insecurities are killing me, you know that. You even found out that I wanted to break up with you the first few days after I told you "let's give it a shot" (fuck Redhorse, it makes me speak my mind after several bottles). You said I have Inferiority complex, I know the basic meaning of it but I still checked it online -- lack of self- worth, a doubt and uncertainty, and feelings of not measuring up to society's standards. Now I get it.

First of all, I am not like other girls who would parade you in front of a lot of people just so they'd know that my girlfriend is hot. No way, Jose. Don't get me wrong, I am proud to have you as my girlfriend but sometimes I just don't like people staring at us or whispering stuff like "look at the cute lesbian and her ugly girlfriend" or "di sila bagay". This is not my imagination, it happens trust me. Second, the biggest factor is knowing that only 1 or 2 persons know that you have a girlfriend. I've seen pictures of you and your exes in your account. But a picture of us, none. Too afraid of how people would react when they see me? maybe. Lastly, I sometimes get intimidated by you. You don't know this but I am scared of you. Of course, I just pretend that I am strong because I don't want to end up being bossed around.

You tell me that I should stop overthinking but I can't help myself. Is there a reason why you're keeping our relationship low profile? Do you love me because you need me or you need because you love me? Now don't you tell me to chill and enjoy, I want answers.

Fine, I'll give you credits when it comes to sweet words. You're damn good when it comes to promises and pick up lines. That's one of the reasons why I fell for you. Lol.


I'll give you an A+ when it comes to words, but a -D when it comes to actions.

Go figure..